sheela's wishes, the achievable and those that can and will only stay in her dreams.

-watch Johnny Depp's new movie "Sweeney Todd"

(definitely, definitely achievable)

-learn to play the guitar

(achievable once i've found the time and bugged daddy enough to teach me)

-invest in a drum set

(in a couple of years' time that is, for me and my brothers)

-to continue my organ lessons

(achievable, when i find the time to, tho' i no longer desire playing it as much as the guitar now)

-see real snow

(kinda achievable i think, no, i hope)

-own a Vespa

(only in my dreams that is, im not allowed to get a license)

-own a baby blue beetle

(the ultimate of dreams, alright then, at least to ride in one)

The jazzed version of "Amazing Grace"!
Fell in love with the way the piano's played and the strength in her voice.
Beautifully sung by a Japanese. Her pronunciation's pretty good isn't it?

This is how foolish, absent minded and silly i can get sometimes:

In the ward the patients' drugs are kept in two trolleys. One for the female patients and another for the males. And the trolley is kept locked until its time to serve their medication. So, yesterday Nat and i wanted to prepare their medicines, Nat asked for the key (i think) and later on the staff nurse, Kim (i think) gave it to me to pass it to HuangBo, another staff nurse.

Placed it on top of the trolley for quite some time until smart-me thought to myself that it would be better if i kept it in my pocket instead, in case the keys got lost if i walked out of the room. And so smart-me continued the daily pattern of work.

Smart-me was reaching home soon, it was about 4pm at the time, the train was going to Admiralty and smart-me was talking non-stop to Nisa, feeling pretty satisfied and at ease. Of course i was feeling that way- the day went okay, we had lots of laughs earlier, the most recent was teasing Min =) and the following day would be my day off, so why wouldn't i be happy?

And then smart-me got a call. Found out it was Kak Su, and thought why would she be calling me, this was how the conversation went:
Sueria: "Hello, is this Sheela?"

Me: "Yeap"

Sueria: "Sheela, this is Kak Su here, by any chance have you seen the medication key?"

Me: "Oh, i put it on the trolley......" (then i remembered the next place i put it in, my hand went into my pocket, felt the key) its in my pockkkeeettttt" (by this time i was squealing softly if it can be done softly, or did i murmur that last bit)

Sueria: "Sorry, what?"

Me: "IT'S IN MY POCKET!!!!!"

Yea, so i had to go all the way back to the hospital, the best part was i was already reaching my station. I felt incredibly stupid at that time! Got off the train, walked to the other side and waited for the opposite train.
How brilliant.

Before i went into the ward i was so wishing i could place a plastic bag over my head!!!

Went out with best friend today, and again i cracked her up with my sillyness, well, she was equally silly too =)

A little example; over dinner we were talking about nursing stuff, mostly complaining about what we are subjected to at times...
Me: "Yeaaa. They must understand. Humans are nurses too!!!!!!!!!!!"

Nana: "Hmm" (nodding her head in full-agreement)

Me: "Eh? No. NURSES are HUMANS too!"

Nana: "Ehh? Oh ya..."

And then came our usual outburst of laughter.

Your Inner Color is Blue

Your Personality: Your natural warmth and intuition nurtures those around you. You are accepting and always follow your heart. You in Love: Relationships are your top priority, and this includes love. You are most happy when you are serious with someone. Your Career: You need to help others in your job to feel satistifed. You would be a great nurse, psychologist, or counselor.

What's Your Inner Color?

obviously i'm bored now, and it has become such a habit to do blogthings when i'm bored.. took quite abit of tests before i chanced upon this..i don't know about great, but now blogthings got me being a nurse right. I am amazed at how accurate some results can be.

You Are An ENFJ

The Giver You strive to maintain harmony in relationships, and usually succeed. Articulate and enthusiastic, you are good at making personal connections. Sometimes you idealize relationships too much - and end up being let down. You find the most energy and comfort in social situations ... where you shine. In love, you are very protective and supporting. However, you do need to "feel special" - and it's quite easy for you to get jealous. At work, you are a natural leader. You can help people discover their greatest potential. You would make a good writer, human resources director, or psychologist. How you see yourself: Trusting, idealistic, and expressive When other people don't get you, they see you as: Bossy, inappropriate, and loud

What's Your Personality Type?

Anyway, was reading a random book that i chose to pass time away, from daddy's "library" of books and the author wrote one sentence that struck me the most.
The chapter was on the area of submission, and he (the author) pointed out that the act of submission, like a wife submitting to her husband, is an expression of respect.
But he also mentioned that to submit to someone is hard unless we truthfully and honestly respect the person we're submitting to.
"To yield to another is impossible unless you respect them. You can be forced to obey someone, but not to respect them."

And with what happened recently in the ward, this sentence seems to be very real to me, in a way because the author's example was mostly on the husband and the wife, i'm sure yielding to a husband is on a much and completely different level as compared to yielding to a superior at work .

Back to the ward.

I obey, yes. I listen, yes. I answer nicely, yes. But that's only 'cause i have to.
But whether i respect the person/people, is a different matter altogether.

Time to update this blog of mine.

Showed Siti my blog in the ward the other day (while waiting for Muhaimin and Kak Su to finish their passing of report) and her first exclamation was "WAH! SO LONG NEVER UPDATE!" or something that goes along that line.

THREE more weeks till PRCP is over!! =D

Three months of attachments non-stop flew by so fast, i'm still surviving, and i will continue to survive! (shee sings the chorus of "I will survive" by Gloria Gaynor softly slowly, then picks up the pace as she crescendo until she screams that particular line out hysterically)

Working life has been tough, but it allowed me to meet new friends.. to think that i just came home from an outing with a staff nurse, and two other students, Siti whom i hardly speak to in school and Muhaimin, the guy from NP.

It also allowed me to experience the blessings of working shifts. If you couldn't catch it, there's a slight tinge of sarcasm to that line.

I WORKED on NEW YEAR'S day! Not morning or afternoon shift but NIGHT shift!

When people welcomed the new year in the company of friends and family.. i welcomed it in the company of my patients. When people were dancing, full of adrenaline in those last few minutes of the year 2007 and the first few minutes of 2008, we nurses that night "danced" our might away with a patient, running after the old man, coaxing him to his bed and finally carrying him to his chair.

Oh well, that's nursing life for you.

But other than that, there were little specks of joy that night, enough to make me smile and say to myself that spending new year's in the ward isn't too bad after all. I had a nice little treat from my preceptor - a can of drink and twisties. Spending my hour long of break in the activity room enjoying my little treat, stretching my legs over the sofa and watching what was remaining of the late night tv show. I still managed to catch the firework display, i laughed at the old man's expression when he looked, pointed to me and shook his head angrily and i listened with interest as my preceptor told me of doctors and nurses who hitched up together in the past and as we talked about other stuff.
So, tho' i missed counting down with my beloved friends, the yearly affair of eating prata at Unc Murali's house and many others, i still did enjoy my new year's after all.

Brownie-cupcakes

After Christmas, both Nana and I can tell you that making (about) 60 brownies is definitely not a joke. The brownies were our Christmas gifts to the Sojourners and some others and we started baking from 6pm on the eve of Christmas till 645 am the next day!

Mixing, baking, making the icing, spreading the icing, colouring the icing and putting their names on top the brownie with the blue/green icing and finally packing it nicely... towards the end the two of us became so sick from making it, all we were saying to each other was "i wannaaaa sleeeeeeppp!".. the smell of icing was so horrible (try smelling 60 of them and smelling it for about 12 hours) i told her that i didn't wanna smell icing and see/eat brownies for the whole year. Of course, it's all just talk 'cause after Chris told me it was nice, i took one from the extras and ate it. Anyway, we're not exactly wonderful bakers, so there were some nice looking brownies and erm, funny looking ones. We divided them into 3 groups, nana calls them "The Beautiful", "The Disaster" and "The Beautiful Disaster". Of course we didn't give "The Disasters" out! (her blog has the pictures to each caption)

Some pictures. (we had no more time plus too tired to take more pictures, especially the ones with the names on them already, also didn't take a picture of nana at work)

anyway, the blogpost below mine.. Nana posted it.

We watched a Japanese show titled "NANA" on thursday at my place, and we loved these two songs..

glamourous sky; endless story.

Glamourous Sky by Mika Nakashima


Endless Story by Yuna Ito



ive embeded the two songs(:
HAHA, NANA WAS HERE(x

Finally my night shifts are over. It isn't that bad actually, but its a weird feeling knowing that when most people are going home and getting ready for bed, i'm going to work. When their sleeping, im working my bum off and when their waking, i'm ending my shift.

Started my nights on friday and ended it in the morning today.
Because of only having three hours of sleep yesterday, was head-banging in the train today. After my shift yday, went straight to church. (amazing that i did not sleep halfway during the sermon) and Ganga who was working with me did not get any sleep at all between her first and 2nd night, so it's even more amazing that the two of us could get past the whole night, it would have been terrible if we fell asleep while sponging the patients.

Anyway, talking about the patients, some of them look really really REALLY frightening at night! There was this patient whom i dared not do alot of things near her, cos she looks scary enough and yet her bed has to be next to the window. (The exact same place Diana said she saw a figure standing when she was doing her night some time ago!)

But what i like about doing nights is that, the 6 staff- usually its four of them, plus me and Pete, another nursing student get to sit down and chat,(BONDING TIME!) listen to songs while doing those paper work at the counter. And having nights means not having the ward Sister (and i don't like her at all, but that's another story) watching my moves and not being rushed by doctors or other staff. =D





And best friend's birthday was last wed! Had a great time celebrating and "planning" for it in the sly. From ignoring your calls, to accidentally bumping into you halfway at the escalator, Dee brilliantly distracting you so that you won't see us, then blowing all those balloons in the middle of Bugis (hey, cherish me and Dot okay, we were willing to lose our faces for you), running into the cafe before you see us with the balloons, hiding and surprising you from behind with them, to the wonderful lunch together, watching the waiters surprise you with the little cake and the many candles and finally smearing your face with cream. =D


i know im very late with this shout out but HAPPY 19TH BESSIE FRENDA! and HAPPY 18th HONEY! (the reason why i asked you to come along was so we could also celebrate your bday by surprise too =( it would have been so much more fun if you could join, but the more stressful for the five of us! =p)

and thank you Dot, Dee, Aly and Pearl.. we're all really very smart huh? =)

Gurl, hope you enjoyed it too, and really hope it took you by surprise.



(for more pictures - please proceed on to Dot's blog)

This blog's not dead.
The owner's just being extremely lazy.
A new blog entry coming soon.
=)

Here's some of the pictures i took with Fauzy's camera that day, only this few got developed cos the rest were really dark. Kinda upset about it, and some pictures are an absolute MESS ! (because it's a few shots all rolled up into one picture - clearly im not very good at this.)
Nevertheless i had fun taking them.. the first photo's my favourite =).






the guy with the international "twist/peace" sign; he's the nice vendor, who gamedly posed for us.
and this other guy smiling into the camera; honestly, i don't remember him at all, neither do i remember taking a photo of him.
In another picture, you'll see fauzy at work.

This Holga camera is pretty good actually, cos of the effects and how the shots appear nearer than i actually was to them. There's two other shots which i would have loved to see/got developed - one of a cute little boy and another of the guy who works in the shop selling carpets 'cause he too, struck a funny pose for me.



Finally, BYE BYE St Andrew's Hospital and the long bus rides! The journeys to and fro is crazy. But ill miss caring for the sweet old grannies and Katherine in the ward.
Janey and Mel.. they definitely made my attachments for the past month a happy, entertaining one =D

You Should Play the Drums

You are often hyper, restless, and full of a little too much zeal. However, people may be surprised to know that you can focus your energy well. You are driven and engaged enough to be a great drummer... and you have the stamina to practice for hours. In fact, when you can channel your energy productively, it only increases! You are independent and spirited... but also consistent. You can definitely keep the beat. You work well in a group and contribute heartily - without needing to take the lead. Your dominant personality characteristic: your aggression Your secondary personality characteristic: your precision

What Musical Instrument Should You Play?

Blogthngs has some pretty reliable tests (i said some).
The thing i like about playing the drums is getting to practice in singing harmony as well, because even if i go out of tune, no one will hear me. Okay, maybe just the bassist...

Everything by Lifehouse

Find me here, Speak to me
I want to feel You, I need to hear You
You are the light that is leading me
To the place where I find peace again

You are the strength that keeps me walking
You are the hope that keeps me trusting
You are the life to my soul
You are my purpose
You're everything

And how can I stand here with You and not be moved by You
Would You tell me how could it be any better than this

You calm the storms
You give me rest
You hold me in your hands
You won’t let me fall
You steal my heart and you take my breath away
Would You take me in
Would You take me deeper now

And how can I stand here with You and not be moved by You
Would You tell me how could it be any better than this

'Cause You’re all I want
You're all I need
You're everything, everything

im starting to get really tired, am into my 4th week of attachments now. all i can type is that, attachments has drained all energy from me. The shifts, the journey.. is draining, and honestly im not doing much and yet i can be this tired.

So, its no wonder that just recently ive been thinking.. about me, about being a nurse long term. Is this what im gonna do for years and years? Or is there something else and if it is something else, why then has God placed me in nursing now...

When i was in Sec 4, rena took me out for our fellowship/bible study/talk at Mac's, and she stopped short, looked at me and said "you've lost your fire, your eyes, its distant", funny and a real wonder how our eyes can tell so much, it tells people whether we are happy, whether we are at peace, whether we are hurting, or even empty. Our lips lies, but our eyes cannot. How true the term "eyes are windows to the soul"

And im feeling that way now.. living day by day, getting the journeys to and fro the hospital done, getting the shifts done, getting the callbells done, ive lost the joy in doing what im doing, things have gotten mundane, maybe cos i allowed it to become this way.
When rena told me that, i couldnt disagree because it was true, i myself knew (the early to middle part of that year, i was completely far away from God). Tho' i couldn't see my eyes, i knew it was empty, because i felt that way. And maybe the reason why im feeling the same now is cos i havent been running to His rest daily.

Chris told me a couple of weeks ago (while praying for us maybe), that he felt that im thinking that the world around me is changing so fast that i find myself not being able to keep up; being pushed into attachments/working life so soon, the transition to adulthood, the thoughts of what's happening in my future, knowing and wanting to do better than the way im doing things currently..
but he also said that tho' my world is changing fast, God never changes.
Im praying that, ill regain my joy. Yea, maybe im still unsure/uncertain, but in whichever area that God has placed me in now, ill give my best because tho im uncertain and do not know, He is certain and He knows.

You are God alone
You are not a god created by human hands
You are not a god dependent on any mortal man
You are not a god in need of anything we can give
by Your plan, that's just the way it is

You are God alone
From before time began
You were on Your throne
You are God alone
Right now
In the good times and bad
You are on Your throne
You are God alone

You're the only God who's power none can contend
You're the only God who's Name and
praise will never end
You're the God who's worthy of
everything we can give
You are God, that's the way it is

Unchangeable
Unshakeable
Unstoppable
That's who You are

oh, me and nana appeared in the chinese' newspaper on Sunday morning..
check it out on nana's blog. =)
a once in a lifetime thing.. mum was saying, 2005 she appeared in the newspaper (one of the foreigners turned singaporeans featured that year), 2006 Raj was caught on tv (he was in the choir during last year's national day parade) and now 2007, her daughter's featured on the front page buying bread.

Also on Sunday during 2nd liner's cell, we had this little "game" of writing encouragements/what we think of the person, on each other's papers and i recieved this cute, little poem from someone poetic and cheeky (its not that hard to guess who) :

"Shee shee shee shee shee
You are what i want to be
Strong in God like a tree
Delicate like a cup of tea
This poem's from me
I hope you can see
You're my maggi mee
My sticky rice chee hee
Your faith is as wide as the sea
Hope you know you have the key
To my secrets, my thoughts, and me.
HAHA. =p"

hahaha, this person must have been so hungry when he wrote this poem, hungry till he associated me with food and drink.. friendships are absolute fun =D

and stay over's are absolute fun too! After a long time a stay over at nana's, with jaron joining in the fun.. from watching "the maid" to crapping at 1plus a.m while going to the petrol station opposite to buy drinks..and finally sleeping at 4plus (i slept earlier than them of course, those two owls), and sleeping at nana's hall is niceeee.. the sofa's sooo comfortable.
Oh anyway people, nana's room is in a mess. horrible mess. don't believe me? wait, ill put up the pictures of it soon enough. that's why i decided that we slept in the hall instead.
=D

pictures of a few of the youth. Church' Musical.


with val.

from top to bottom:
josh and nana, joel, alex, eunice and dee.

jon, sam, na, val and joel.

Me and nana with my "mini-D"

bunkies and roomies.

with Sam Khor and lele's hand. =)

Brandon.

Sadly, did not take any pictures with HWC that night. =(

Attachment in the operating theatre isn't too bad. Pretty interesting, watching some surgeries (ceasarian section, a few eye operations, and a little of a neurosurgery!), and each time i'm observing one i can't help but thank God for doctors.
Thank you for blessing them with that awesome , vast amount of knowledge and wisdom which in turn, blesses us all. Thank you Lord.

Anyway, finally! Church' 40th year anniversary musical is done..! =D
After all those months of the choir practising their notes, our dearest choir master for putting up with our nonsense and leading us so well, the band perfecting their keys and music, the cast trying their best to bring out emotions naturally each week while singing and acting, the soloists, the sound and light people.. Amazing. And even the things ive not seen, other preparations like the making of the church' magazine (ohmygosh its BEAUTIFUL!), the committee in charge of the goody bag, the fund raising committee, uncle shenton who liased with OCC, the intercessory group who prayed for months for this event., the brilliant photos taken by our very own photographers, auntie michelle and auntie maureen for making the script, chris for modifying it, the logistics people who in the later practises had to bring the instruments to and fro from church, the church board members for being such an example troughout the process.

And of course the huge turn out! =D i enjoyed myself. And its wonderful really, knowing that we as a church, tho' small, bonded and worked together for this musical, for celebrating God's faithfulness to us for 40 years. Young and old, all of us played a part.

This is the third musical Salem has made, ("Down from His glory" - before i was born, "The reason He came"- 2002), and i remember that "The reason He came" was a much bigger event (with a whole crew of makeup artists! and the choir even acting on stage) but at that time i didn't understand or recognize the beauty of us as a church working together.

And now this musical, "A love story" has reminded me again of something i've always known, tho' i've never thought much about it. I am blessed to be a part of the Salem family. I am blessed to be born into this big family. I am loved and i thank God for that. For blessing me with this.

God is good. He is good.

I am content.=)

Skinny Jeans

You are classy and a bit formal when it comes to your personal style. Your look is feminine and well put together - and never trashy or too trendy.

What Style of Womens Jeans Are You?

i like skinny jeans.

You Are Lemon Meringue Pie

You're the perfect combo of sassy and sweet Those who like you have well refined tastes

What Kind of Pie Are You?

i wanna try this pie!!

My 6 weeks of total biss (holidays, deeaaarr holidays) has ended and attachments started. Yes, only 6 pathetic weeks. Nursing students get very little holidays, but well, better than none at all.

I'm posted to the Accident and Emergency department this week and so far (it may be a little too early to judge since ive only been there exactly two days) it seems fun. Went to the resusitation room yesterday, and i got to see an ETT (endotracheal tube) insertion - totally not like the way we practised in school, plus have gotten the hang of doing ECG (electrocardiogram).
Observation room was tiring today, unlike the name, we don't sit down and observe the patients. Rather had to help them with little things, spent most of the time, bringing the patients to the toilet/helping them with it, and that in itself is very draining because i had to push their bed/trolley into that little room with the toilet inside. Patient after patient needed to go to the loo. Patient after patient we had to push/pull the bed. (Of course the staff nurses there does not just do this things alone.. they gotta call the wards for beds.. make sure that doctor's orders are carried out..etc they looked and were super busy.)
Well, im thankful that the nurses and doctors in the E.D. are nice, making the stay pleasant.


Anyway, thank you people for the presents and the many birthday calls, smses, friendster comments and blog tags, you made me a happy girl. I was grinning from ear to ear like a retard the whole day. Thank you, not for making me look loony, but for making me happy. =)


I was a happy girl last saturday night too. Fauzy took me to the night bazaar in Geylang, and being the gentleman that he is, lent me his new camera to snap photos with, he hasn't even used it! (he's an avid, aspiring photographer). And I've never, NEVER been to a place as crowded as that before. The people!!! There were some moments where we couldn't move, not even an inch. But had a great time nevertheless. Will put up the photos once i get it.
But go lenient on me when you're judging it, because it's my first time taking pictures with those big black cameras okay...

What People Think of Your Mouth

People see you both as reserved and sweet. You tend to be very sensitive and detail oriented. The smallest things can please or annoy you. You tend to be internally moody. Perceptive and intuitive, you understand people quickly - though you usually won't tell them.

What Does Your Mouth Say About You?

kinda true, especially the part that says "the smallest things can please or annoy you"

You Should Wear Plum Lip Gloss

Sassy, seductive, and a little dangerous.

What Color Lip Gloss Should You Wear?

erm.. maybe not now...

Your Scent is Pumpkin Pie

Warm, comforting, and a bit old fashioned You've got what men want - believe it or not!

What's Your Girl Smell?

how does pumpkin pie smell like?
okay. you can tell, im bored.

To my dear friends who are fasting this month, this post is not meant to spite you all, (sorry, forgive me k?). Just that felt like i should blog this out so people can see how silly my brother can get (well, having a big sis like me, its not hard to know why too). Sometimes i do not know what goes on in his head.

me: (knocks the door, holding my plate of unfinished chicken rice)
Raj: (opens the door)
me: (walks in) "Help me finish this"
Raj: (taking the plate) "What's that?"
me: "Chicken rice, i can't finish, help me eat"
Raj: (passes the plate back) "Don't want, don't like this kind of chicken"
me: "i know, i don't like it too. Aiya, just eat laa! I don't want to waste food"
Raj: (leaving the room) "Then you eat la, i don't want."
me: "i'm full! RAAAJJJ, don't waste fooooodd!"
Raj: (shouting back) YOU'RE the one wasting food!"

FIVE minutes later.

me: (bathroom, showering)
Raj: (outside, talking to mum on the phone, pauses and asks) "Akka, you ate lunch ready?"
me: "That's a silly question isn't it?"
Raj: "Oh ya" (and goes back talking to mum)

Front Desk

So, have started back at Jill's.
Back at the front desk where i used to sit 3 years ago. Ever ready to smile when the lift's bell gives a slight ring, welcoming the people who step out from the lift and into our cosy, dim-yellow lit, beautiful office.
Sitting in front of the black marble wall with the huge gold words spelling Jill Lowe International beautifully. Answering calls in the familiar sing-song like manner with soft hushed tones, "Good Morning, Jill Lowe International. Can I help you?".

Man, has it been 3 years already? I've been working in that place since i was 16 after O'levels, full time during my three and half months break, and part time ever since till now.

And yet nothing much have changed at the front desk. Still the same daily business of picking up calls, answering clients' questions, typing out and compiling modules for Jill, making sure the facial appointments will run smoothly. All these are the same, only for the people who are now sitting with me at the front, except for dear Vivian, my favorite colleague.

I miss Ayu. We joined Jill's at around the same time and she was so hilarious, never failing to make me laugh (she actually sang and danced for me a whole Bollywood song!), we were close at work, also because we came in faithfully at 8.30-9am and left for home together at 7.30pm sometimes up to 10! I know, it's crazy, the new girls are now much smarter.
But she left work a few months after i started school.
Well, thank God my new colleagues are really nice too, enjoy working with them and ive gotten used to being called a "meimei" too now.

40th anniversary: church' musical practice..


dorothy, the pretty flamingo, and amanda (the pretty flamingo's bf whose also perfecting her poses to be singapore's next top model) =p













mr and mrs. joel ikonen (chris and ele)























nana, me (pardon the extremely tired face)
and the bored auntie ruth behind.


some of the band members and the cast.






dee and aly