Michael Jackson passed away.
We have heard so much from the media, constant news coverage whether it was bad or good about him the past four years never did i or would i think that i would hear this news.
Death happens. And the reality of it only becomes clear when it happens to a star, or to someone close. Only then will we wake up.
Only then will we wish for more time. When we wish we could do something better, something more, so that our lives will not go to waste.
I don't want mine to go to waste.
So H1N1 is at it's 200s.
You know how is it like to be absolutely blur at work. The registra yesterday was informing about the ministry's plans and what could happen and what we need to be ready for and as i was listening to him, wide eyed and looking up to him not just cos he already towers over me while i'm standing, i was sitting down and looking up to a giant of a man, the only thing going through my mind was "huh? what? come again? huh?"
Complete trust happens when we don't know what to do. when we cannot rely on our own past wisdom and knowledge, when we need to lean onto and be dependant on something else or to someone else. Notice how heads are turned and eyes are looking straight at the ministry and yes, they are doing a good job, thank God for leaders. But you know to whom my eyes are turned to and to whom i put all my trust on?
I put all my trust on you Lord.
Friday, June 26, 2009
Sunday, June 21, 2009
byebye ward 3* and hello ward 6*
Madina gave me a ring on thursday, and what she told me made my heart drop and caused fear to come into my heart. Three quarter of us would be deployed to work in a new ward that has been newly opened up for the HINI patients and it would start on Monday.
Yes, I am scared. I've always watched and heard about this from afar. Never had i thought that I would be involved directly in this global fight.
It was the same with SARS in 2003. I was still studying and watching the news or reading the newspapers about it in the comfort of my home. Then again, i was only 15 and the cares of the world then, it's sickness and diseases didn't mattered as much as my own petty cares and woes a teenage girl would face everyday in her life.
The second phone call from Dina caused me to be stunned all the more. Okay, i was getting used to the news. I would be starting on Monday, that gave me three days to prepare myself mentally, "Sister, you better buy all your shampoo, soap and stuff later. Go to work in your own clothes tomorrow, there's no need to wear uniforms. You'd be starting tomorrow. The ward just opened today 'cos there's an overflow of cases, I'm gonna be deployed there tonight"
Weird how when fear strucks you, you can't think, you can't speak.
My fear wasn't for my own but was for my family and my friends as well. I've got a five year old little brother at home!
Do i go home and live life as per usual?
Do i need to stay home?
We were thrown into this deep water, knowing no head or tail about this.
I've only got a year of working experience.
My fear was real, straightaway told my parents and my closest friends about it. And their encouragements came fast.
Yes. I will trust in God.
After two days in the ward, no matter how the higher ups say that we might be working here only for two weeks, until another ward steps up and then we'll be able to return to our own ward.
I doubt that would be the case. In all honesty, to me, looking at it in the natural, it doesn't look like it would be ending anytime soon. I see it as a fight. Something we have gotta pray for and about. No one can see the flu bug, no one would be able to feel that he or she has it, only until tests are done.
We go around living for our moment, not knowing that there are many issues to pray and seek God for. Do we only start praying when someone close to us is struck with a sickness? Do we only start being concern when someone we love is ill?
Life isn't just about our own desires, loves, laughs, wants, enjoyment.
I have got a two year old little girl in my ward with H1N1. Will anyone pray for her?
In terms of work, it isn't too bad actually, we just got to don our PPE all the time and be extra careful and diligent in our handwashing and infection control. On friday, a guy came up and rang our door bell to deliver a patient flowers. He stood there, still, but the moment he saw Rages and I in our whole yellow get up, he got shocked. We walked towards him, laughing 'cause we knew he had questions in his mind, it was written all over his face! We opened the door and he took a step in, to which both Rages and I exclaimed "DON'T COME IN!", it was that, that confirmed it for him. After taking the flowers and confirming the patient's name and signing on the patient's behalf for the flowers, he asked "is this...? do they....?" We nodded our heads and he took a HUGE step BACKWARDS. It was a little funny i must say.
Madina gave me a ring on thursday, and what she told me made my heart drop and caused fear to come into my heart. Three quarter of us would be deployed to work in a new ward that has been newly opened up for the HINI patients and it would start on Monday.
Yes, I am scared. I've always watched and heard about this from afar. Never had i thought that I would be involved directly in this global fight.
It was the same with SARS in 2003. I was still studying and watching the news or reading the newspapers about it in the comfort of my home. Then again, i was only 15 and the cares of the world then, it's sickness and diseases didn't mattered as much as my own petty cares and woes a teenage girl would face everyday in her life.
The second phone call from Dina caused me to be stunned all the more. Okay, i was getting used to the news. I would be starting on Monday, that gave me three days to prepare myself mentally, "Sister, you better buy all your shampoo, soap and stuff later. Go to work in your own clothes tomorrow, there's no need to wear uniforms. You'd be starting tomorrow. The ward just opened today 'cos there's an overflow of cases, I'm gonna be deployed there tonight"
Weird how when fear strucks you, you can't think, you can't speak.
My fear wasn't for my own but was for my family and my friends as well. I've got a five year old little brother at home!
Do i go home and live life as per usual?
Do i need to stay home?
We were thrown into this deep water, knowing no head or tail about this.
I've only got a year of working experience.
My fear was real, straightaway told my parents and my closest friends about it. And their encouragements came fast.
Yes. I will trust in God.
After two days in the ward, no matter how the higher ups say that we might be working here only for two weeks, until another ward steps up and then we'll be able to return to our own ward.
I doubt that would be the case. In all honesty, to me, looking at it in the natural, it doesn't look like it would be ending anytime soon. I see it as a fight. Something we have gotta pray for and about. No one can see the flu bug, no one would be able to feel that he or she has it, only until tests are done.
We go around living for our moment, not knowing that there are many issues to pray and seek God for. Do we only start praying when someone close to us is struck with a sickness? Do we only start being concern when someone we love is ill?
Life isn't just about our own desires, loves, laughs, wants, enjoyment.
I have got a two year old little girl in my ward with H1N1. Will anyone pray for her?
In terms of work, it isn't too bad actually, we just got to don our PPE all the time and be extra careful and diligent in our handwashing and infection control. On friday, a guy came up and rang our door bell to deliver a patient flowers. He stood there, still, but the moment he saw Rages and I in our whole yellow get up, he got shocked. We walked towards him, laughing 'cause we knew he had questions in his mind, it was written all over his face! We opened the door and he took a step in, to which both Rages and I exclaimed "DON'T COME IN!", it was that, that confirmed it for him. After taking the flowers and confirming the patient's name and signing on the patient's behalf for the flowers, he asked "is this...? do they....?" We nodded our heads and he took a HUGE step BACKWARDS. It was a little funny i must say.
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