Finally my night shifts are over. It isn't that bad actually, but its a weird feeling knowing that when most people are going home and getting ready for bed, i'm going to work. When their sleeping, im working my bum off and when their waking, i'm ending my shift.

Started my nights on friday and ended it in the morning today.
Because of only having three hours of sleep yesterday, was head-banging in the train today. After my shift yday, went straight to church. (amazing that i did not sleep halfway during the sermon) and Ganga who was working with me did not get any sleep at all between her first and 2nd night, so it's even more amazing that the two of us could get past the whole night, it would have been terrible if we fell asleep while sponging the patients.

Anyway, talking about the patients, some of them look really really REALLY frightening at night! There was this patient whom i dared not do alot of things near her, cos she looks scary enough and yet her bed has to be next to the window. (The exact same place Diana said she saw a figure standing when she was doing her night some time ago!)

But what i like about doing nights is that, the 6 staff- usually its four of them, plus me and Pete, another nursing student get to sit down and chat,(BONDING TIME!) listen to songs while doing those paper work at the counter. And having nights means not having the ward Sister (and i don't like her at all, but that's another story) watching my moves and not being rushed by doctors or other staff. =D





And best friend's birthday was last wed! Had a great time celebrating and "planning" for it in the sly. From ignoring your calls, to accidentally bumping into you halfway at the escalator, Dee brilliantly distracting you so that you won't see us, then blowing all those balloons in the middle of Bugis (hey, cherish me and Dot okay, we were willing to lose our faces for you), running into the cafe before you see us with the balloons, hiding and surprising you from behind with them, to the wonderful lunch together, watching the waiters surprise you with the little cake and the many candles and finally smearing your face with cream. =D


i know im very late with this shout out but HAPPY 19TH BESSIE FRENDA! and HAPPY 18th HONEY! (the reason why i asked you to come along was so we could also celebrate your bday by surprise too =( it would have been so much more fun if you could join, but the more stressful for the five of us! =p)

and thank you Dot, Dee, Aly and Pearl.. we're all really very smart huh? =)

Gurl, hope you enjoyed it too, and really hope it took you by surprise.



(for more pictures - please proceed on to Dot's blog)

This blog's not dead.
The owner's just being extremely lazy.
A new blog entry coming soon.
=)

Here's some of the pictures i took with Fauzy's camera that day, only this few got developed cos the rest were really dark. Kinda upset about it, and some pictures are an absolute MESS ! (because it's a few shots all rolled up into one picture - clearly im not very good at this.)
Nevertheless i had fun taking them.. the first photo's my favourite =).






the guy with the international "twist/peace" sign; he's the nice vendor, who gamedly posed for us.
and this other guy smiling into the camera; honestly, i don't remember him at all, neither do i remember taking a photo of him.
In another picture, you'll see fauzy at work.

This Holga camera is pretty good actually, cos of the effects and how the shots appear nearer than i actually was to them. There's two other shots which i would have loved to see/got developed - one of a cute little boy and another of the guy who works in the shop selling carpets 'cause he too, struck a funny pose for me.



Finally, BYE BYE St Andrew's Hospital and the long bus rides! The journeys to and fro is crazy. But ill miss caring for the sweet old grannies and Katherine in the ward.
Janey and Mel.. they definitely made my attachments for the past month a happy, entertaining one =D

You Should Play the Drums

You are often hyper, restless, and full of a little too much zeal. However, people may be surprised to know that you can focus your energy well. You are driven and engaged enough to be a great drummer... and you have the stamina to practice for hours. In fact, when you can channel your energy productively, it only increases! You are independent and spirited... but also consistent. You can definitely keep the beat. You work well in a group and contribute heartily - without needing to take the lead. Your dominant personality characteristic: your aggression Your secondary personality characteristic: your precision

What Musical Instrument Should You Play?

Blogthngs has some pretty reliable tests (i said some).
The thing i like about playing the drums is getting to practice in singing harmony as well, because even if i go out of tune, no one will hear me. Okay, maybe just the bassist...

Everything by Lifehouse

Find me here, Speak to me
I want to feel You, I need to hear You
You are the light that is leading me
To the place where I find peace again

You are the strength that keeps me walking
You are the hope that keeps me trusting
You are the life to my soul
You are my purpose
You're everything

And how can I stand here with You and not be moved by You
Would You tell me how could it be any better than this

You calm the storms
You give me rest
You hold me in your hands
You won’t let me fall
You steal my heart and you take my breath away
Would You take me in
Would You take me deeper now

And how can I stand here with You and not be moved by You
Would You tell me how could it be any better than this

'Cause You’re all I want
You're all I need
You're everything, everything

im starting to get really tired, am into my 4th week of attachments now. all i can type is that, attachments has drained all energy from me. The shifts, the journey.. is draining, and honestly im not doing much and yet i can be this tired.

So, its no wonder that just recently ive been thinking.. about me, about being a nurse long term. Is this what im gonna do for years and years? Or is there something else and if it is something else, why then has God placed me in nursing now...

When i was in Sec 4, rena took me out for our fellowship/bible study/talk at Mac's, and she stopped short, looked at me and said "you've lost your fire, your eyes, its distant", funny and a real wonder how our eyes can tell so much, it tells people whether we are happy, whether we are at peace, whether we are hurting, or even empty. Our lips lies, but our eyes cannot. How true the term "eyes are windows to the soul"

And im feeling that way now.. living day by day, getting the journeys to and fro the hospital done, getting the shifts done, getting the callbells done, ive lost the joy in doing what im doing, things have gotten mundane, maybe cos i allowed it to become this way.
When rena told me that, i couldnt disagree because it was true, i myself knew (the early to middle part of that year, i was completely far away from God). Tho' i couldn't see my eyes, i knew it was empty, because i felt that way. And maybe the reason why im feeling the same now is cos i havent been running to His rest daily.

Chris told me a couple of weeks ago (while praying for us maybe), that he felt that im thinking that the world around me is changing so fast that i find myself not being able to keep up; being pushed into attachments/working life so soon, the transition to adulthood, the thoughts of what's happening in my future, knowing and wanting to do better than the way im doing things currently..
but he also said that tho' my world is changing fast, God never changes.
Im praying that, ill regain my joy. Yea, maybe im still unsure/uncertain, but in whichever area that God has placed me in now, ill give my best because tho im uncertain and do not know, He is certain and He knows.

You are God alone
You are not a god created by human hands
You are not a god dependent on any mortal man
You are not a god in need of anything we can give
by Your plan, that's just the way it is

You are God alone
From before time began
You were on Your throne
You are God alone
Right now
In the good times and bad
You are on Your throne
You are God alone

You're the only God who's power none can contend
You're the only God who's Name and
praise will never end
You're the God who's worthy of
everything we can give
You are God, that's the way it is

Unchangeable
Unshakeable
Unstoppable
That's who You are

oh, me and nana appeared in the chinese' newspaper on Sunday morning..
check it out on nana's blog. =)
a once in a lifetime thing.. mum was saying, 2005 she appeared in the newspaper (one of the foreigners turned singaporeans featured that year), 2006 Raj was caught on tv (he was in the choir during last year's national day parade) and now 2007, her daughter's featured on the front page buying bread.

Also on Sunday during 2nd liner's cell, we had this little "game" of writing encouragements/what we think of the person, on each other's papers and i recieved this cute, little poem from someone poetic and cheeky (its not that hard to guess who) :

"Shee shee shee shee shee
You are what i want to be
Strong in God like a tree
Delicate like a cup of tea
This poem's from me
I hope you can see
You're my maggi mee
My sticky rice chee hee
Your faith is as wide as the sea
Hope you know you have the key
To my secrets, my thoughts, and me.
HAHA. =p"

hahaha, this person must have been so hungry when he wrote this poem, hungry till he associated me with food and drink.. friendships are absolute fun =D

and stay over's are absolute fun too! After a long time a stay over at nana's, with jaron joining in the fun.. from watching "the maid" to crapping at 1plus a.m while going to the petrol station opposite to buy drinks..and finally sleeping at 4plus (i slept earlier than them of course, those two owls), and sleeping at nana's hall is niceeee.. the sofa's sooo comfortable.
Oh anyway people, nana's room is in a mess. horrible mess. don't believe me? wait, ill put up the pictures of it soon enough. that's why i decided that we slept in the hall instead.
=D

pictures of a few of the youth. Church' Musical.


with val.

from top to bottom:
josh and nana, joel, alex, eunice and dee.

jon, sam, na, val and joel.

Me and nana with my "mini-D"

bunkies and roomies.

with Sam Khor and lele's hand. =)

Brandon.

Sadly, did not take any pictures with HWC that night. =(

Attachment in the operating theatre isn't too bad. Pretty interesting, watching some surgeries (ceasarian section, a few eye operations, and a little of a neurosurgery!), and each time i'm observing one i can't help but thank God for doctors.
Thank you for blessing them with that awesome , vast amount of knowledge and wisdom which in turn, blesses us all. Thank you Lord.

Anyway, finally! Church' 40th year anniversary musical is done..! =D
After all those months of the choir practising their notes, our dearest choir master for putting up with our nonsense and leading us so well, the band perfecting their keys and music, the cast trying their best to bring out emotions naturally each week while singing and acting, the soloists, the sound and light people.. Amazing. And even the things ive not seen, other preparations like the making of the church' magazine (ohmygosh its BEAUTIFUL!), the committee in charge of the goody bag, the fund raising committee, uncle shenton who liased with OCC, the intercessory group who prayed for months for this event., the brilliant photos taken by our very own photographers, auntie michelle and auntie maureen for making the script, chris for modifying it, the logistics people who in the later practises had to bring the instruments to and fro from church, the church board members for being such an example troughout the process.

And of course the huge turn out! =D i enjoyed myself. And its wonderful really, knowing that we as a church, tho' small, bonded and worked together for this musical, for celebrating God's faithfulness to us for 40 years. Young and old, all of us played a part.

This is the third musical Salem has made, ("Down from His glory" - before i was born, "The reason He came"- 2002), and i remember that "The reason He came" was a much bigger event (with a whole crew of makeup artists! and the choir even acting on stage) but at that time i didn't understand or recognize the beauty of us as a church working together.

And now this musical, "A love story" has reminded me again of something i've always known, tho' i've never thought much about it. I am blessed to be a part of the Salem family. I am blessed to be born into this big family. I am loved and i thank God for that. For blessing me with this.

God is good. He is good.

I am content.=)

Skinny Jeans

You are classy and a bit formal when it comes to your personal style. Your look is feminine and well put together - and never trashy or too trendy.

What Style of Womens Jeans Are You?

i like skinny jeans.

You Are Lemon Meringue Pie

You're the perfect combo of sassy and sweet Those who like you have well refined tastes

What Kind of Pie Are You?

i wanna try this pie!!

My 6 weeks of total biss (holidays, deeaaarr holidays) has ended and attachments started. Yes, only 6 pathetic weeks. Nursing students get very little holidays, but well, better than none at all.

I'm posted to the Accident and Emergency department this week and so far (it may be a little too early to judge since ive only been there exactly two days) it seems fun. Went to the resusitation room yesterday, and i got to see an ETT (endotracheal tube) insertion - totally not like the way we practised in school, plus have gotten the hang of doing ECG (electrocardiogram).
Observation room was tiring today, unlike the name, we don't sit down and observe the patients. Rather had to help them with little things, spent most of the time, bringing the patients to the toilet/helping them with it, and that in itself is very draining because i had to push their bed/trolley into that little room with the toilet inside. Patient after patient needed to go to the loo. Patient after patient we had to push/pull the bed. (Of course the staff nurses there does not just do this things alone.. they gotta call the wards for beds.. make sure that doctor's orders are carried out..etc they looked and were super busy.)
Well, im thankful that the nurses and doctors in the E.D. are nice, making the stay pleasant.


Anyway, thank you people for the presents and the many birthday calls, smses, friendster comments and blog tags, you made me a happy girl. I was grinning from ear to ear like a retard the whole day. Thank you, not for making me look loony, but for making me happy. =)


I was a happy girl last saturday night too. Fauzy took me to the night bazaar in Geylang, and being the gentleman that he is, lent me his new camera to snap photos with, he hasn't even used it! (he's an avid, aspiring photographer). And I've never, NEVER been to a place as crowded as that before. The people!!! There were some moments where we couldn't move, not even an inch. But had a great time nevertheless. Will put up the photos once i get it.
But go lenient on me when you're judging it, because it's my first time taking pictures with those big black cameras okay...

What People Think of Your Mouth

People see you both as reserved and sweet. You tend to be very sensitive and detail oriented. The smallest things can please or annoy you. You tend to be internally moody. Perceptive and intuitive, you understand people quickly - though you usually won't tell them.

What Does Your Mouth Say About You?

kinda true, especially the part that says "the smallest things can please or annoy you"

You Should Wear Plum Lip Gloss

Sassy, seductive, and a little dangerous.

What Color Lip Gloss Should You Wear?

erm.. maybe not now...

Your Scent is Pumpkin Pie

Warm, comforting, and a bit old fashioned You've got what men want - believe it or not!

What's Your Girl Smell?

how does pumpkin pie smell like?
okay. you can tell, im bored.

To my dear friends who are fasting this month, this post is not meant to spite you all, (sorry, forgive me k?). Just that felt like i should blog this out so people can see how silly my brother can get (well, having a big sis like me, its not hard to know why too). Sometimes i do not know what goes on in his head.

me: (knocks the door, holding my plate of unfinished chicken rice)
Raj: (opens the door)
me: (walks in) "Help me finish this"
Raj: (taking the plate) "What's that?"
me: "Chicken rice, i can't finish, help me eat"
Raj: (passes the plate back) "Don't want, don't like this kind of chicken"
me: "i know, i don't like it too. Aiya, just eat laa! I don't want to waste food"
Raj: (leaving the room) "Then you eat la, i don't want."
me: "i'm full! RAAAJJJ, don't waste fooooodd!"
Raj: (shouting back) YOU'RE the one wasting food!"

FIVE minutes later.

me: (bathroom, showering)
Raj: (outside, talking to mum on the phone, pauses and asks) "Akka, you ate lunch ready?"
me: "That's a silly question isn't it?"
Raj: "Oh ya" (and goes back talking to mum)

Front Desk

So, have started back at Jill's.
Back at the front desk where i used to sit 3 years ago. Ever ready to smile when the lift's bell gives a slight ring, welcoming the people who step out from the lift and into our cosy, dim-yellow lit, beautiful office.
Sitting in front of the black marble wall with the huge gold words spelling Jill Lowe International beautifully. Answering calls in the familiar sing-song like manner with soft hushed tones, "Good Morning, Jill Lowe International. Can I help you?".

Man, has it been 3 years already? I've been working in that place since i was 16 after O'levels, full time during my three and half months break, and part time ever since till now.

And yet nothing much have changed at the front desk. Still the same daily business of picking up calls, answering clients' questions, typing out and compiling modules for Jill, making sure the facial appointments will run smoothly. All these are the same, only for the people who are now sitting with me at the front, except for dear Vivian, my favorite colleague.

I miss Ayu. We joined Jill's at around the same time and she was so hilarious, never failing to make me laugh (she actually sang and danced for me a whole Bollywood song!), we were close at work, also because we came in faithfully at 8.30-9am and left for home together at 7.30pm sometimes up to 10! I know, it's crazy, the new girls are now much smarter.
But she left work a few months after i started school.
Well, thank God my new colleagues are really nice too, enjoy working with them and ive gotten used to being called a "meimei" too now.

40th anniversary: church' musical practice..


dorothy, the pretty flamingo, and amanda (the pretty flamingo's bf whose also perfecting her poses to be singapore's next top model) =p













mr and mrs. joel ikonen (chris and ele)























nana, me (pardon the extremely tired face)
and the bored auntie ruth behind.


some of the band members and the cast.






dee and aly

oooohhh read this from nana's blog, and decided to grab parts from the article she posted which i agree with and speaks to me.


"Brothers, it falls to us to be the initial risk takers in matters of the heart (i cannot agree with this more!). Headship means being the one to go ahead and ask. It is ours as men to suffer the embarrassment of rejection if need be (ahhh, the author couldn't have said it more beautifully!). It is our role to initiate. Get right to it merrily. We are the hunters. They are the quarry. It is for men to strike out into the forest and look. It is for women to crack the twigs and stir the leaves so we know where to find them.
From the book for guys/men, "Doing things right in the matters of the heart" by John Ensor


"Pray for a humble man who listens for God's voice - and then pray that God speaks your name to him"
From point number 4: Pray before, during and after you crack twigs.
Cool =)

Enough is enough. No matter how many attacks, questions i recieve, it's not gonna stop me from loving my Lord. It's not gonna stop me from worshipping and believing in Jesus.
I don't know, if God is trying to show me, tell me something thru' out the recent weeks, thru'out all these things.. it's a painful process, and it's hurting me.

You Are a Purple Crayon

Your world is colored in dreamy, divine, and classy colors. You hold yourself to a sky high standard, and you are always graceful. People envy, idolize, and copy you without realizing it. You are an icon for those who know you. And while it is hard to be a perfectionist, rest assured it's paying off! Your color wheel opposite is yellow. While yellow people may be wise, they lack the manners and class needed to impress you.

What Color Crayon Are You?

wow, my best friend knows me well indeed. So nana, i turned out to be a purple. But their wrong about one thing, you do impress me. Maybe im a different shade of purple.

3 movies in 6 days..its crazy, im now officially broke..(but ive been broke many other times recently..so after the movie marathon, im not broke but bankrupt. desperately need to work: which im gonna start tomorrow, at JLI.)


movie #1: 1408.

a disturbed movie, it was an hour and a half of torture. i felt the room was torturing me as much as the guy was being tortured - physically, mentally,emotionally, just minus the physical part for me because i was watching from the comfort of the cinema's seats. The movie's cool la, but i left the cinema with a huge question mark on my head. The show had no closure and i need closure.

So if an American/Hollywood movie can freak me out this much now, its a no-no to Asian especially thai horror shows from now on.


movie #2: No Reservations.

a splendid movie. rather, my cup of tea . apart from the sweet, innocent romance the lead chef and the sous chef had, the bonding between the aunt, the niece and the aunt's bf, we get to see food, glorious, tantalising, beautifully and creatively served food.

Definitely makes working in the kitchen attractive.


movie #3: Evan Almighty.

i like this movie too, lighthearted and yet with certain parts which is inspirational/a reminder.

One thing that caught me was this when God was speaking to Evan's wife: saying that He gives opportunities. "If you prayed for patience, does God give you patience just like that? He gives opportunities. If you prayed for a closer family, will God zap you with warm fuzzy feelings? He gives you opportunities"

cool. The comedy was funny too.







Finally after such a long time a meeting up with Majina! my little sis from sec school. Been so long since we last met, but back then she was one of my closest and dearest friend. Until now, she's still close to my heart. It's those kind of friendships,that no matter how long you haven't met, or the many years that has pass, you still love that friend just the same, ever so much.

the different ways to cut and style a bob.

photographer: Cheryl (who surprisingly didn't wanna take a photo =p)