So here goes. A new life on my own, here in a new country. Well not exactly new as I have stayed here for the past one year doing my one year degree course but it's different. The attitudes, feelings and responsibilities changes as the situation and circumstances around us changes. Being a student last year and now transiting to and becoming a working adult is different.
And while all these around me changes, I am changing to. I am growing up and I am learning.
Taking it one step at a time. Leaving home and my comfort zone "for good" isn't easy but I am excited at this change.
"All of my ambitions, hopes and plans. I surrender these into Your hands"
Everything about life Lord, from the things I do, the grades I'll have, the job I'll take, the places I'll stay in, the people I'll meet and become friends with, the man I'll marry, the kids I'll bear. All of these wishes, dreams and plans I surrender them to You.
Mahatma Gandhi said that strength does not come from physical capacity, but that instead it comes from an indomitable will. A will that cannot be subdued.
I respect and admire people who are strong, those who have the courage to pick themselves up after they fall. Those who are humble enough to say that "I have got nothing, and yet I have everything". Those who have been at the lowest points of their lives and yet still say that "Life is still worth living"
What are my problems compared to people who have got nothing. Who have got no money for food or clothes. To those who have got no shelter. To people who smell and live with death so near. Who knows for sure that there might not be a tomorrow.
What are our problems compared to theirs?
Are we so blinded by ourselves that we cannot see how much we are blessed with.
"Follow your heart" Really? When our hearts are the most fickle, confused little things? God has given us brains for a reason. He gave us senses. He enabled us to think. You don't just jump into something without weighing it in. Not all the time can impulses and gut feelings be right.
Personal example. How many times has my heart told me "I am sure he is the one. Yes I'm sure he is" How many times has my heart told me, "this feels right" and yet, it's not.
Ladies, can you relate to that?
We need to use both reason and feelings. But more than that.The only way we can be sure is when we have got a divine peace. When we seek God in our decision making. Too holy for you? God is too big to involve Himself in your little life? He gave all He had for you. Doesn't that show you how much your seemingly little insignificant life mean to Him?
Pray and seek God when you're stuck in a rut. Ask for directions when you're at crossroads. In all your decision making, use all that He has given you. And until He gives you the answers, until you have got that divine peace, where you no longer are in doubt. Then go ahead. Get that job. Put your kids in that school. Migrate the whole family. Court that girl or that guy. Seal that business deal.
You'll then see that with God involved in your life, you can never go wrong. Your heart will no longer be fickle. There'll be no place for confusion.