"You are my strength, strength like no other. Reaches to me"

How does one work when he/she has got so much pent up frustration. That's the thing with me. I'm no longer clear on what I want, be it in the present or when planning for the future.

Sister T. (being at ward 85 allows me to work under another ward sister) stopped me at the counter yesterday to let me know that ward 31 will be opening up soon and that they're gonna get all of us who disbanded to come back together.

I'm supposed to be happy, I'm supposed to jump at this offer the moment it was made. So why did I reply her with a "I'll think about it". On one hand, I miss working with my ward 61 girls. It's been a long time since the word "fun" was entertwined with the word "work". But on the other, I'm starting to really like some of the current girls/ladies I'm now working with. Before I came to ward 85, I've never known what was it like to work under so many senior staff nurses who are really good at their work and who knows procedures at the back of their hands. Having the assurance that I'm covered and will be taught well, I like that.

If I'm gonna be transferred again now, how sure can I be that I won't again.