I know you've cast my sin as far from the east to the west

Jesus can you just show me how

I miss you, I miss lingering, I miss trusting you and loving you the way i did before

Blessed by what dad told me today. It sure has been long since i last really talked and listened to dad and today's breakfast was good.
How amazing God is, when He speaks to you through people.
When they say statements, in relation to whatever you're going through, and you have yet to tell them about it.
How do they do that? How do they know what to speak into my life?
God is indeed amazing (: He never fails to wonder.

I learn, we all learn.
How do i put it, other than to say that I love what God is doing in my life. Life sure can be a bundle, but i love how we all learn. When we fall, and we get back to our feet.
With each experience, we gain wisdom.
It's during and because of circumstances, we mature.

the current song i'm in love with:
Come back to me, Utada Hikaru

Michael Jackson passed away.
We have heard so much from the media, constant news coverage whether it was bad or good about him the past four years never did i or would i think that i would hear this news.
Death happens. And the reality of it only becomes clear when it happens to a star, or to someone close. Only then will we wake up.
Only then will we wish for more time. When we wish we could do something better, something more, so that our lives will not go to waste.
I don't want mine to go to waste.

So H1N1 is at it's 200s.
You know how is it like to be absolutely blur at work. The registra yesterday was informing about the ministry's plans and what could happen and what we need to be ready for and as i was listening to him, wide eyed and looking up to him not just cos he already towers over me while i'm standing, i was sitting down and looking up to a giant of a man, the only thing going through my mind was "huh? what? come again? huh?"

Complete trust happens when we don't know what to do. when we cannot rely on our own past wisdom and knowledge, when we need to lean onto and be dependant on something else or to someone else. Notice how heads are turned and eyes are looking straight at the ministry and yes, they are doing a good job, thank God for leaders. But you know to whom my eyes are turned to and to whom i put all my trust on?
I put all my trust on you Lord.

byebye ward 3* and hello ward 6*

Madina gave me a ring on thursday, and what she told me made my heart drop and caused fear to come into my heart. Three quarter of us would be deployed to work in a new ward that has been newly opened up for the HINI patients and it would start on Monday.

Yes, I am scared. I've always watched and heard about this from afar. Never had i thought that I would be involved directly in this global fight.

It was the same with SARS in 2003. I was still studying and watching the news or reading the newspapers about it in the comfort of my home. Then again, i was only 15 and the cares of the world then, it's sickness and diseases didn't mattered as much as my own petty cares and woes a teenage girl would face everyday in her life.

The second phone call from Dina caused me to be stunned all the more. Okay, i was getting used to the news. I would be starting on Monday, that gave me three days to prepare myself mentally, "Sister, you better buy all your shampoo, soap and stuff later. Go to work in your own clothes tomorrow, there's no need to wear uniforms. You'd be starting tomorrow. The ward just opened today 'cos there's an overflow of cases, I'm gonna be deployed there tonight"

Weird how when fear strucks you, you can't think, you can't speak.
My fear wasn't for my own but was for my family and my friends as well. I've got a five year old little brother at home!
Do i go home and live life as per usual?
Do i need to stay home?

We were thrown into this deep water, knowing no head or tail about this.
I've only got a year of working experience.
My fear was real, straightaway told my parents and my closest friends about it. And their encouragements came fast.

Yes. I will trust in God.

After two days in the ward, no matter how the higher ups say that we might be working here only for two weeks, until another ward steps up and then we'll be able to return to our own ward.
I doubt that would be the case. In all honesty, to me, looking at it in the natural, it doesn't look like it would be ending anytime soon. I see it as a fight. Something we have gotta pray for and about. No one can see the flu bug, no one would be able to feel that he or she has it, only until tests are done.

We go around living for our moment, not knowing that there are many issues to pray and seek God for. Do we only start praying when someone close to us is struck with a sickness? Do we only start being concern when someone we love is ill?
Life isn't just about our own desires, loves, laughs, wants, enjoyment.
I have got a two year old little girl in my ward with H1N1. Will anyone pray for her?

In terms of work, it isn't too bad actually, we just got to don our PPE all the time and be extra careful and diligent in our handwashing and infection control. On friday, a guy came up and rang our door bell to deliver a patient flowers. He stood there, still, but the moment he saw Rages and I in our whole yellow get up, he got shocked. We walked towards him, laughing 'cause we knew he had questions in his mind, it was written all over his face! We opened the door and he took a step in, to which both Rages and I exclaimed "DON'T COME IN!", it was that, that confirmed it for him. After taking the flowers and confirming the patient's name and signing on the patient's behalf for the flowers, he asked "is this...? do they....?" We nodded our heads and he took a HUGE step BACKWARDS. It was a little funny i must say.

The difference between You and I.
It has grown stark.
Once upon a time, we were similar.
Like one.
Shared the same hopes, values, desires
I doubt it's the same today

Why do i always get suck in, into this same cycle over and over again.
Why do i allow myself to be in such situations over and over again.
Why do i let my heart be hurt over and over again.
Why do i struggle over and over again.

Philippines tomorrow all the way up to 7th May! :D
It's gonna be really hot there.
But Lord, like what Timo shared just now: You're so good. We shouldn't complain.
So use us and let us be a blessing to the kids, the teachers, the youth, the friends, the adults. Amen.





My favourite pictures for the night :D

Love is not a place
To come and go as we please
It's a house we enter in
And then commit to never leave
So lock the door behind you
Throw away the key
We'll work it out together
Let it bring us to our knees

Love is a shelter in a raging storm
Love is peace in the middle of a war
If we try to leave may God send angels to guard the door
No, love is not a fight but it's something worth fighting for

To some, love is a word that they can fall into
But when they're falling out
Keeping that word is hard to do
Love is a shelter in a raging storm
Love is peace in the middle of a war
If we try to leave may God send angels to guard the door
No, love is not a fight but it's something worth fighting for
Love will come to save us, if we'll only call
He will ask nothing from us, but demand we give our all

Love is a shelter in a raging storm
Love is peace in the middle of a war
If we try to leave may God send angels to guard the door
No, love is not a fight but it's something worth fighting for
I would fight for you, would you fight for me?
It's worth fighting for.

Carry My Cross by Third Day

As long as I remember
I've been walking through the wilderness
Praying to the Father
And waiting for my time
I've come here with a mission
And soon I'll give my life for this world

I'm praying in the garden
And I'm looking for a miracle
I find the journey hard but
It's the reason I was born
Can this cup be passed on
Lord, I pray your will be done
In this world

So I'll carry my cross
And I'll carry the shame
To the end of the road
Through the struggle and pain
And I'll do it for love
No, it won't be in vain
Yes, I'll carry my cross
And I'll carry the shame

I feel like I'm alone here
And I'm treated like a criminal
The time has come for me now
Even though I've done no wrong
Father, please forgive them
They know not what they've done
In this world

Three more days and I'll be coming back again
Three more days and I'll be coming back again

What was supposed to be a baby-sitting night for Janan turned out to be a dinner date with the other dear younger brother, Raj instead.
Parents were gonna do visiting/ministry and wanted us to look after Jan and distract him at Causeway Point but he insisted on following Mom and Dad when they dropped us off at Causeway. Thus it was just Raj and I.
He followed me while i shopped for necessities this time (knowing the reactions Dot, J.K, Pearl will give when reading this ;p) Awkwardly waiting at the side while big sister smelt lotions and perfumes/scanned tru' the shelves of creams and then commenting on the amount i spent.

Good training for him right ladies?

We had dinner at Pastamania, and what i loved about it was i got to talk to him, heart to heart, deeper topics. I wished it was longer but it was still good. We talked about his friends, whom he has gotten closer to the past year, we talked about girls, yes, girls, :p, we talked about me, the guys i liked/liked me. He and I have always been open to each other about these things.
I am quite impressed actually, when i asked him if his girlfriend next time has got to be really pretty or have a good body, he answered saying it wouldn't matter (: Tho' he did say she has got to be pleasant looking.

Maybe you think he isn't being honest. But that's a mindset we should all adopt.
When all the good looks fade, when time and age catches up, all you have got left is character. Will you still love him/her the same way you did when he/she was a sweet young thing?
It's easy to be shallow. But i'd want someone, to look at me the way I am inside. Someone to love me, for who I really am, and not because of the way i look like on the outside.

PART 2: EGOISTIC PEOPLE ON THE LOOSE ;p this is my follow up post to the last one i put up.

oooohhh goodness. what's up with me and the people i've been chatting with the past two/three days. Haha. The ego bug has caught up with our dear Sophie too!!!!!!
:D HAHA. AND AGAIN. I'm smiling to myself in front of the computer. I should stop soon 'cos i look like a loon.

2:31pm Sheela Grace
P6?

2:31pm Sophia
p5
not THAT old
he
*hee

2:32pm Sheela Grace
HAHAHAH. OLD?!

2:32pm Sophia
yupyup

2:32pm Sheela Grace
YOU WANNA TALK ABOUT WHO'S OLD?!

2:32pm Sophia
hahahaha

2:33pm Sheela Grace
hahahahahahahahhaahha!!!!you;ve got alot of explaining for yourself to do young lady if i tell this to Dot Nana Alvin they all
hahahahahahhha.
We'd breathe down your back

2:33pm Sophia
teehee
i dun mean that old
i mean that's quite old compared to me!

2:34pm Sheela Grace
oh ho ho ho

2:34pm Sophia
teehee

2:34pm Sheela Grace
hahahahaha saving yourself now huuuhh
hahahahahaha (:
you know im kidding right now right? im not really angry

2:34pm Sophia
teehee sorta
of coz :) i'm too cute to be angry with
heehee

2:34pm Sheela Grace
HAHAHAHAHAHAHASOPHIA SNG I DIDNT KNOW YOU WERE THIS EGOISTIC!
WHAT HAPPENED TO QUIET DEMURE ANGELIC SOPH?!

2:38pm Sophia
hmmm
i dunno :P jkjk
it's the stress heee
still innocent though!

:D goooooodness.

I've got very egoistic friends i tell you. Haha. They sure provide entertainment and always cause me to laugh/snigger to myself in front of the computer/alone reading my smses.

Here's a little bit of the conversation between Naz and I on MSN.
hahaha. and as usual i did some publicity for Nat 7.
Friends who chat with me on MSN would ask me about the song i'm listening to (it's shown on my display name, and i have been listening to their songs for the past two weeks), now i'm seriously considering typing and saving my intro of Nat 7 on Microsoft word, so i could just copy and paste it in future (:


naz says (10:50 AM):
yeah i understand now

naz says (10:51 AM):
some ppl loves to stalk those they are attracted to coz they are afraid of rejections but dont wori sheela dont beat around the bush ok. hahahahahahaha

sheela grace espinosa pandian says (10:51 AM):
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA
silly naz

naz says (10:58 AM):
eh anw wat song r u listening to uh?

sheela grace espinosa pandian says (10:59 AM):
its by this cool "band" Naturally 7 who's more than just an acapella group
they imitate instruments

sheela grace espinosa pandian says (11:00 AM):
so all the drum beats violin guitars bass saxophone flute sounds you hear all come from their voices (:
and they're so good. i watched their performance at Esplanade two sundays ago
heeheehee. and my friend Alvin got us front row seats
HEART MELTS

naz says (11:00 AM):
hahahahaha

naz says (11:01 AM):
lucky u neva see me at esplanate
ade*

sheela grace espinosa pandian says (11:01 AM):
hahahahaha. my heart melted more because of the guy who sings the bass.
siggggh.
my lovely lovely bass

naz says (11:01 AM):
if nottt i tell u

sheela grace espinosa pandian says (11:01 AM):
HAHAHAHAHAHHA. EH STOP AH
HHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAA

naz says (11:01 AM):
u become like chocolote fondue i tell u

sheela grace espinosa pandian says (11:01 AM):
nothing beats my lovely bass
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA

sheela grace espinosa pandian says (11:02 AM):
wahhhlooouu nazzzzz!

naz says (11:02 AM):
hahahaha

sheela grace espinosa pandian says (11:02 AM):
hahahaha. THE WHOLE OF OUR CONVERSATION has been about you and YOUR EGO!

naz says (11:02 AM):
hahaha

sheela grace espinosa pandian says (11:03 AM):
i told you im selective of those i stalk and i stalk my lovely bass. thats it.
hahahahah. sooorrrryyy nazzzzz

naz says (11:03 AM):
sure or notttt
i dont believe u

(: the whole topic of who's stalking who came up when i asked him about Brunei and him being a medic, information that another friend (who happens to be his camp-mate right now) told me when we realized we both know Naz.
Here's another conversation i had, this time tru' sms:

Shafi'ie 1 Apr 2009, 18:50
"Just curious, do you think i look the same or abit different"

Me 18:53
"The same. Haha. Just that got no hair now"

Shafi'ie 18:57
"Dang. Thot mayb i became cuter or wat with short hair. Hahaha."

Hahahaha. Seriously. :D Friends like these crack me up.

"A woman is not born a woman. Nor does she become one when she marries a man, bears a child and does their dirty linen, not even when she joins a women's liberation movement. A woman becomes a woman when she becomes what God wants her to be" - Quoted from the book "Learning to be a Woman"

"This priceless truth can help keep your perspective clear in relation to true fulfillment in life. Too many Christian women think that the inner longings of their heart relate only to love, marriage, and motherhood. Look a little closer and see if that longing isn't untimately for Jesus."

"Gary Chapman once remarked , "I feel very strongly that marriage is not a higher calling than the single state. Happy indeed are those people, married or single, who have discovered that happiness is not found in marriage but in a right relationship with God." Fulfillment for a Christian woman begins with the Lordship of Christ in every area of her life."

"A college professor (wife, mother of seven children, singer, and author) told a group of young women that when she was eight years old, her mother told her a secret that has guided her perspective on life. The most important thing her mother would ever tell her was, ' No one, not even the man you will marry one day, can make you happy - only Jesus can. ' What a profound statement for such a little girl. This secret allowed her to grow up following Jesus with reckless abandonment"

"When a single woman enters a career or even marriage without understanding that she is complete in Christ, she will be disillusioned and dissatisfied. Incompleteness is not the result of being single, but of not being full of Jesus. Only the process of reckless abandonment to Jesus does any woman ever finally understands that, in Him, she is complete."

"When two "incomplete" singles get married, their union will not make them complete. Their marriage will be simply two "incomplete" people trying to find completeness in one another. Only when they understand that their fullness is found in a relationship with Jesus will they ever begin to complement one another.They can never complete one another. You were not created to complete another but to complement. Completion is Jesus' responsibility and complementing is a woman's (hee, and for the guys: or a man's) priveledge." wow. i've never seen in this way. i thought i was made to complete someone, but then this truth seems to jump out at me. Everytime i read this line again, my heart seems to skip a beat. We can never be able to complete someone. because only Jesus can. Only He can fill that hole in the hearts of people, men and women alike. And even if we try hard enough to "complete" someone, maybe a friend, we will never be able to satisfy, the way Jesus does.

"A woman not complete in Jesus will be a drain on her husband. Such a woman will expect her husband to fill the gap that only Jesus can fill. Only the single woman who understands this means of being complete in Jesus is mature enough to be a helpmeet (complement)"


The above excerpts taken, here and there, from the current book i'm reading, "Lady in Waiting" by Jackie Kendall & Debby Jones


I want to fall madly and deeply in love with Jesus, before i do a man.

I want to use my single days completely sold out to Him, because a single man/woman has got something valuable, that married men and women may not be able to spare, and it's time.

Jesus, it's Your presence that I long for, Your face that I seek and Your Name that I love

HAHA. Brave me decided to chat with GARFIELD BUCKLEY OF NATURALLY 7 on fb.
oh gosh. They really are so nice! He could choose not to reply me, but he still did. It is hard to have fame and yet still be so humble and it's heartwarming when we see stars having that quality.

I'm so exicited. I'm gonna rave about it NOW! :D and show off.
I'm sorry.. when it comes to this I can't keep quiet.
Haha. I have been joking and telling all those friends I have been raving about, that they are my victims. Really. There was Debs, Morven, Shahul, Lilian, Estella, Jaya, Mariam, Haresh and Kevin. To all of them i have raved about and swooned over Nat 7!

11:03am Sheela Grace
Hello hello Garfield! Its been 4 days and my friends and i are still pretty much hyped out about your performance in Spore. (:
God bless you guys. Its great when we listen carefully and hear that most of your songs are directed to God. Your group's such a blessing and for that, May God continue to bless and enrich you guys more.

11:23am Garfield
awww thank you sooo much Sheela...it was a pleasure singing in Spore we had a great time there thanks a lot

11:24am Sheela Grace
HAHA. well im sure we hope we made an impression just like you did all of us! (:

11:24am Garfield
well yes you did
remember this is our second time coming there

11:25am Sheela Grace
Yeaaa! And when will be the next? we're eagerly awaiting plus we have been raving about N7 to all the friends who did not come. :D

11:25am Garfield
but you meet different people each time too
so hopefully the next time we come back there i'll see you :-)

11:26am Sheela Grace
sure you will! We'll make sure we'll come again and get the front row seats. it was a treat (:

11:27am Garfield
awww well im glad you enjoyed yourself

11:29am Sheela Grace
hee. yeap. i did. So, take care! And enjoy all the other gigs and get more cds out in Spore toooooo. Haha. okay, ill not take much of your time. It has been a couple of days/week of gigs non-stop right? God bless you again and send my regards to the rest too. (:

11:42am Garfield
will do all the best


oh my goodness.
You don't wanna know what state I am in right now!

(: (: (: (: (:

Like Nana, no amount of smiles can tell you how happy/excited I am.

Hee, and I'm excited and yet nervous about tomorrow. Going there having no idea what I will be doing and what it is for. Need to start practising my smiles. All i know I gotta go back to work today tho' it's my day off and collect the KK Hospital jacket my ward sister, Sister K borrowed for me.

I'll write again soon what Sister K told me over the phone last night! Hahaha. She cracks me up all the time, and I like her as a person. She's probably the funniest and most DOWN-TO-EARTH, most personal Ward Sister I have.


To the parents of my dear Bed 9,
I'm sorry it happened. I can only imagine the pain You both are going tru'.
When i recalled how the two of you said "thank you" to us when leaving our ward for the ICU, the more hurt I am. And to think that You were one of the nicest parents we had.
My heart stopped for a moment when I heard the news and I teared on my way home. If only we could turn back time. At 13 years, it's far too early.
I can and will pray that God will give you strength to tide over this.

BACK FROM NATURALLY 7'S CONCERT AT ESPLANADE!


AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! (: (: (:

FRONT ROW SEATS! *THANKS ALVIN!!!!!!!!!!!*

THEY REMEMBERED US!!!
during the autograph session, Dwight and Garfield asked/confirmed with me and Nana if we were the ones seating at the first row! :D :D :D :D and we were one of the last few to have our CDs signed, so it's amazing plus touching that they remembered us.

HOP'S (the bass) VOICE SWOONED ME OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Manda, Dot!!! I agree that basses are HOT ;p hehehe.
(:

We waited to take a picture with them, but the people working at Esplanade were pushing them to leave and we missed them by a few seconds :( BUT HOP REMEMBERED THAT WE WANTED TO TAKE A PHOTO WITH THEM and HE TURNED BACK AND MOTIONED FOR A PHOTO, but the guy was ushering him away!!!!!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. *MELTING*

At least we managed to take a photo with Roger!

OH NO! I SOUND LIKE A CHILD!!!!

BUT I REALLY DID ENJOYED EVERY BIT OF THE PERFORMANCE!!!!
They have got such great, beautiful voices, are such REAL TALENT and knowing that they are Christians and using their voices to give glory to God, really is an inspiration! Most of their songs are about/to God! The performance was splendid, and i loved how they added humour to it, and how they always end with a "God bless"

They were worth watching, their music is worth listening to, and the next time they come to Singapore, I'll be sure to catch their show again (:

NOTE: The band doesn't use ANY INSTRUMENTS none at all.
All the music/instruments, and i mean COMPLETE with drums, electric guitar, violin, bass, , flute, dj tables etc come from their VOICES, and their voices alone!!!!and hearing them LIVE was FANTASTIC! there were hair raising moments, heart thumping moments and i couldn't help smiling! THEY WERE FABULOUS!

And to give you a little nugget showing how much the four of us enjoyed them, after we've parted to go on our own ways back home, we did some mass-smsing among us:

Alvin: "Absolutely sub-zero tempertaure cool la! i believe tt most of their songs are abt God :) N in one of their songs they were actually reminding people 2 think abt e lyrics n not just dance! How cool is that! :) Dis is e best musical performance i've had e priveledge of attending! Tnx 4 intro-ing :D"

Me: "My best ever too! Really thank God for this group they are an inspiration!"

Dot: "Was reading their testimonies in e cd cover n ALL of them were thanking God "When e singers are gifted, God is uplifted" Im so happy i had u guys 4 company"

Nana: "Gosh. I can still hear their voice ringing in my ears! *heart melts* they're so good. And its really cool that they glorify God with their songs (:"

I love their voice control. AWESOME.

And here's a picture with 1/7 of them, Roger (:

and another of us and their poster!!! hahaha, 'cos we missed them by a few seconds, don't make me think of that more, i'd get sad again :(

The new face you see there is Dot's ex-student, who's actually both mine and Nana's junior! :D We made a new friend.

Glorify Your Name

Your presence Your Glory
You're welcome here
All honor, dominion
Lord please come near
We want you
We need You
We live to glorify Your Name

Glorify Your Name
Glorify Your Name
Glorify Your Name above all names

Yes Lord, I want you. I need you. I live to glorify Your Name

My parents and Janan went off to Maesot, Thailand today and they'd be there for a short trip until wednesday. I worked the p.m. shift today thus I could not see my parents before they left home for the airport, so they sent me smses before they left.

We all know that a mother's love for her children are shown tru' words. Quite literally. (:
Here's a snippet:

4.43pm, MOM : Grl, dr r laundries u ned 2 hang 4me 2more outside wen its not rainin. Just bring d pail outside n hang dm. D towels, pls hang each on d hanger. Got hangers on d windows.

4.44pm, MOM: the exact same message as above

4.46pm, MOM : Make sure dy don't touch d floor. Just use pails. U take care, we'l call u fr maesot. Make sure u take yur key fr dor. Lock gate, lock dor n put stopper on d dor. Sat, u can cok rice and heat up beef 4lunch.

5.05pm, DAD : Sweetheart, u take cre ha. Love u. We wil col u frm bangkok 2nite

5.45pm, MOM : Grl, pls put the curry in the fridge. Also, there are chiko fruit in the fridge, pls eat. Ask your bro to eat too, it is very good. Take care, pls put your ph on alarm in the morning. See you both on wed. Love you.

:D There! I kept smiling after reading all five smses and showed them to Lilian and Jessette at work, and they were laughing as they read them all, with Jessette saying, "it's like that. Mom's are like that". Hee, She's a young mom too (:

And sidetracking: MY MOM'S SHORT FORMS IN HER SMSES ARE SIMPLY HORRID RIGHT?! There really were times when i read her smses and had to take a long time to discern what she was trying to tell me. Hahaha. My mom's so cute la. :D

Manda did this quiz and Dot asked me to do it too, so here are my results and like Manda, I find the answers quite accurate (:

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward.
You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
(: though this doesnt say much about the type of boyfriend i'm looking for isnt it?

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
(so, to the darling people who have been asking me when am i gonna get a boyfriend, this pretty much sums up my answer ;D
I have got no rush. I've got to enjoy singlehood as much as i can right now, agree? Because the moment i'm in a committed relationship, i'm in it for life! (: I'm also a fervent advocator of THE LIST. Unless he matches all the criterias in it, i will not settle.
Another good point you should take is that to make sure that the criterias/characteristics/attitudes you want in a boyfriend/husband is realistic; share and show that list to friends you trust and be accountable to them. They'd be able to point out too, if you are dreaming way too much or setting unrealistic standards. I've shown my list to Manda, Dot, Nana and Alvin. Another pointer to help when you're writing your list too, is to think if YOU too, can fulfill and have the attitudes/characteristics you want in him/her. It'd be quite unfair if you expect him/her for example, to look past your little faults/quirks if you don't want to do the same for him/her!
And while I'm waiting for the "right"/best person, I need to prepare myself to be the "right" /best one for him too, and that is what I advice you to do too. Marriage is a union of two souls. It's not so much just to fill the human void in you, because in us, we all have that want, the desire or should i say a need. That need to love and to be loved. But both should be able to complement each other, to complete each other, both should want to bless each other. It's not so much of "what my boyfriend/girlfriend/husband/wife must have to complete me". The attitude should be "how can i complete my boyfriend/girlfriend/husband/wife". How can i be his/her oasis.
So make that list and pray about/upon it. Pray that likewise, the same way you want him/her to match it, you gotta match it too ;p)

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
(hee. They have got the "aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like" part right on the dot!)

Your views on education:
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:
You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.
(Being a staff nurse allows me to burn off my considerable excess energy, sometimes way too much! I am one who can't hold down a desk-job too, i need, really really need to move around and talk)

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
(I'm more confident and probably confident only of success because I know I have got God by my side, and because I know I am in the place where He wants me to be in right now. When you obey God and serve/do what He wants you to do, you will find that blessings is sure to follow you, it may be in promotions, money or even intangible blessings like having that joy in your heart, a smile in your face and such great peace that absolutely NOTHING can ever take away)

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
(I'm a people person, and when it comes to problems, i always need someone to hear me out, going tru them with people i trust, and yet at the same time, i don't want to be dependant on them. I always see strength as being able to climb back on your own feet eventually and moving on with life. And i for one, am no damsel-in-distress too (: I appreciate all the help but i don't like to be seen and viewed as a delicate flower ALL of the time)

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
(I get bogged down and bothered by people-issues, their troubles somehow becomes mine, and i end up worrying, getting bothered or being angry by an issue on behalf of them, even if they don't feel that way!)

Just ended my round of night shifts, i'm really thankful that in KKH we only do two nights per round. The first night was bad. Terribly, horribly busy. We would only have 4 staffs scheduled on night shifts. And we had 8 admissions that very night. One every hour until 5am.. And three of my patients needed IV plug, blood cultures and one needed to do lumbar puncture. Goodness. All three in a row. Never had i assisted in three blood cultures straight one after the other. A record for me 'cos even on morning/afternoon shifts, we don't normally assist in three at one go!

And on a side note, people who work in hospitals can be quite supersticious. As the House Officer was struggling to do clerking for all the new admissions (it just kept piling up for him! He'd start on one and another new patient will come in - we had alot of new casefiles sitting on top the other, on the table!), the Medical Officer came to help and she needed to review the new patients anyway. It was already at around 4a.m., and seeing that the H.O. has yet to bathe and change into his scrubs, she went "YOU DIDN'T BATHE?! IT'S YOU!!!! (pointing at him) 8 ADMISSIONS IS CRAZY! YOU STOP YOUR WORK AND GO BATHE! (motioning for him to go out of the ward) QUICK GO BATHE, AT LEAST SHOWER, PLEASE!"

Hahaha. He had quite a sheepish expression after the M.O. admonished him for not taking a shower! And heard from my colleague, he said "I better go and bathe before all of you start scolding me", he did hear both Seow Chee and I complaining that the night is crazily busy. At one part, (after his shower, haha, we were still complaining la), he looked at us and smiled embarrassly. Indeed the busiest i've ever had before, usually i'd be able to sit down by 1130pm and buy snacks from downstairs and eat, but we didn't couldn't sit down most of the shift. Only swallowed a sushi Seow Chee gave/shared with each us, gulp down a little of milk tea i bought earlier before continuing with work.

I did grab whatever chances i could to sit, when writing out reports/labelling specimen forms. But i was up at my feet most of the whole night.

When we came back for our 2nd night, Seow Chee, Kartina and I had the same expression, haha, we did not even want to walk into the ward. But thank God 2nd night was so much better.

However my body is aching from neck down now, even at my ankles!